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Happy New Year, my friends. First off, yes, I took a massive break, and I’ll explain everything in this post. Honestly, I’m happy to be back, and boy do we have some shit to talk about.

What a year I had in 2018, a big ol’ year of firsts. First year as homeowners. First houseguests. First time hosting a major holiday. Let’s talk about this stuff.

Many of you may know that last November, Hobbs and I purchased our first home. In this first year, we have turned this house into a home. The first floor has been painted and decorated. I let Hobbs choose the colors we used, and it should be noted he’s hoofin color blind. With that being said, he didn’t do too bad…except our dining Link.pngroom is a color called “Salamander” but seriously, it’s basically Link’s Tunic Green (not really shocking if you know Hobbs). The other colors were chosen, I suspect, for their names more than the actual hue. They all have space-related names, Hobbs is a nerd for space. Needless to say, the new paint made the house feel more like us. Also, as I write this I’m pricing out new dishwashers because ours shit the bed. Buying a house was a dream of ours, but man we were NOT prepared for how much money we were about to sink into it.

Let’s jump ahead to June, or as I like to refer to it, “The Summer of Friends.” Our best friends, who live across the country due to being in the military, came to stay for a whole 6 weeks. What an eye-opening experience this was, Hobbs and I don’t have kids (yet) and we had a lovely little look into what it would be like to be constantly surrounded by a 7-year-old and a toddler. To say we were tired every night is an understatement. Seriously, where do they get their energy? We loved every second of them being here, and had an absolute blast! I can honestly say I missed them when they left and might have had myself a mini cry as they drove off to the airport. All in all, it was a great summer!

Jumping into Fall/Winter. We hosted both Thanksgiving and Christmas dinner this year. How the fuck I got through those meals with relatively low levels of anxiety…I will never know. There were 15 people in my house for both meals, and for Thanksgiving, I cooked the hoofin turkey!!! (I had never cooked a Turkey before, butfamily christmas.png let me tell you…I nailed it!) Honestly, I enjoyed having my whole family here, and it wasn’t as horrible as I initially thought it would be. I might even consider doing it again next year…don’t hold me to that though. Oh, before I forget, two honorable mentions for this section of my life…both my oldest nephew and my brother got engaged in the month between Thanksgiving and Christmas. So, I get a new sister-in-law, and a new niece-in-law (is that even a thing?). Also shocking…I like them both.

Those are really my highlights for this past year, and looking back it wasn’t too terrible. I mean, I’m gonna give it a solid 8 on the year-in-my-life scale. Not too shabby.

Now that we’ve looked back, shall we look ahead?

no resolutions.jpgThis year I refuse to make resolutions, mainly because I never fucking keep them. In place of hastily made resolutions, I’ve decided to implement some simple, yet well-placed, changes. Firstly, I’m gonna work on taking care of myself better, not just physically but mentally as well. To be fair, my mental health has taken a backseat and I think I’ve gotten myself as far as I can on my own. I’m taking my own advice and calling in some reinforcements. Wish me luck. Next, it’s time to get my shit together. The plan is to get myself on a schedule, that way I have time to write. I miss writing. I need to write more. I just want to have time to sit here and be creative without worrying over what’s not getting done. Lastly, Hobbs and I have made the decision that it’s time to start the family plan. We’ve been married 7 years and together almost 11, and we’ve been putting off the kids because there were things we wanted to do first (namely, buy a fucking house). Well, we’ve gone and done that, so let’s add tiny Hobbs and Biblios.

Don’t worry I have some plans for this space as well. There will be some changes and new things happening in the coming months, and I’m stoked to see if you guys like them. I’m gonna add in some more of myself, bring in more things I enjoy while still staying true to my first love, books. Stay tuned for that.

That’s it, my friends. My review of 2018 and the look forward to 2019. For the first time in quite a few years, I can honestly say I look forward to seeing what this year brings. I wish you all the very best in 2019, and I hope the new year inspires you to do whatever it is you’ve been wanting. Until next time…

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New Year, New Me (STFU)

Hiya friends and Happy New Year. I know I took a bunch of time off but like I said before it was for a good reason, we bought a house (am I the only person who says that like the line in “We Bought a Zoo”?). I’ll be explaining more about that in my next post. But right now it’s a new year, and you know what that means…it’s resolutions I won’t keep time. *insert cheers and applause or maybe boos here*

I don’t know about you guys but I never succeed in keeping my resolutions and I think I’ve finally found out why: I make impossible resolutions. Example one: a couple years ago I wanted to “get healthy” so I went on this crazy diet and was ALWAYS hungry!!! In case you’re curious a hungry Nikki is a very scary Nikki, it’s not pretty friends. Then there was the year I decided to exercise every day, and the only thing that got any skinnier was my bank account from that stupid gym membership. I mean, both times I started off with the best intentions but still failed within the first couple of weeks.

I’ve come to the conclusion that resolutions like that just aren’t hoofin feasible. That’s why I’ve decided to switch things up a bit this year, and the first thing is no more using the word “resolution.” I have shaky resolve at the best of times, BUT I am pretty good at taking suggestions. That all being said, my 2018 suggestions are as follows:

  1. Be mindful of what I’m eating. (No more soda for breakfast, don’t judge me!)
  2. Wake up at a single digit time, lazy ass. (9:55 am, here I come)
  3. Try to move my ass a little bit more than usual. (Dammit!)
  4. Give meditation a fair shake. (Focusing isn’t easy for me)
  5. Speak less and listen more. (I think the Hobbit will like this one more than me)
  6. Participate in the 500 words a day challenge (not counting chatting or text messaging…dammit again!)
  7. Read about more than just smutty ranchers/bikers/billionaires. (I might have a problem here)

Six pretty simple things, at least in theory. I will say though that generally making “resolutions” can send my anxiety into a fucking tailspin, especially when I don’t stick with it. It ultimately makes me feel bad about myself and that is never fun. This year I’m gonna add in a STFU clause. If, that’s right I’m saying IF, I fail at sticking to one of those suggestions I will tell my anxiety to shut the fuck up and let me give up in peace. Being hard on myself isn’t going to make me stick to something. If I know me, and it’s pretty safe to say I do, if anything it’ll make me fail before I even start. I’m hoping that by adding in that little clause I might be able to hang on longer than three weeks.

Do you guys have any resolutions/suggestions/intentions that you have for 2018? I’d love to hear some of them. One more time, Happy New Year from my family to yours. Until next time, my friends….